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Monday, May 30, 2005

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Sunday, May 29, 2005


The first annual Zydeco festival in the area....Hopefully it will blow up in years to come....This is not the big zydeco festival in Opelousas, Louisiana....
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Friday, May 27, 2005

Dumb and dumber

Corey: (tonight after spending all my money at Chuck E Cheeses):Where do they have pirrhnah mom??

Mom: In the Amazon...In fact it is only legal in about two states in this country to have them as pets Corey.....They have been to known to bite off owner's fingers and toes while handling them......

Corey : What two states is that mom???

Mom: (frustrated right now because of his behavior at times in Chuck E. Cheeses) errr..Corey I don't remember right now....(Thinking of a quick fix to avoid further questions on this)....I think they are called "dumb" and "dumber".....

MoM: Damn...How do you spell Pirranah....

Corey: That's easy.....

Mom: Well how then???

Corey: It's on my game.....I'd have to play it.....That's the only way I can tell you how to spell it...

Mom: Nice try..... Now get to bed.....

Ragin' Cajun

That Vicente Fox shid still makes my blood boil....I was reading today where the heat wave is killing illegal Mexicans crossing the border....Why should my heart bleed over this??? I was discussing this with my ex-boyfriend and he said Fox looks like a fucking chiahuah....That had me laughing all day....Now they are demanding water while trying to sneak into this country and even tooth brushes as in the case of a guy (that I personally knew) who entered the country illegally and then joined the Army....He developed severe gingivitis while in the desert....Lord!!!! (throwing up ma hands)....Everyone has rights nowdays!!!! My uncle has lived in Germany for over 25 years and owns a house there with his second wife...He married a German woman (yes she is White) and he did not sneak into their country....They travel abroad a lot because she works for an airline and they don't try and sneak into those countries either...They do did things the decent and orderly way....I know you card carrying Christians remember that Biblical thought: "Let all things be done decently and orderly....(Except when it applies to money...) I wouldn't even be caught dead dating an illegal and you can carve this in stone...First of all they are "out of order" (unless they are seeking political assylum and their life is on the line) very few exceptions to policy should occur...Starting a relationship on " out of order" terms deems that it would stay out of order....Look at that relationship with my ex...It was totally out of order...I thought the Bible said something about "leaving your parents, clinging to your wife and the two becoming one flesh..." Not if you are going to be a daddy's boy!!! Not only did his family not like Blacks he didn't stick up for me...I swear he was sending them money all during our marriage....Because of his actions and hints...We bought them stuff such as hot water heaters and I still got no respect....When that mother fucker snatched my son and wouldn't allow me to take him to N.C. with me (this was while we were married) they made me sit outside while they went and got him....Well you can't blame them for wanting to take care of their own and feed their families...Yeah!!! At the expense of others they are doing it....I will leave nothing to my ex if I pass before him....He'll just use it to take care of his own kind....People like that should stay with their own kind if they can't handle the risks (of offending family members)...Why should others pay?? Hell my (then) father-in-law allowed my ex's land to get over 6 grand behind because he was dating Black women...He owned for over 12 years a ranch in West Texas just like Eddie did.....And by the same token these people know the risks when they try to sneak in....Maybe God put that desert there for a reason....And who is Fox to impose his people on us?!!! Talk about adding insult to injury....Don't try to get any assistance in Texas....There is none...If you are down and out that is the way you will stay--until you move....Louisiana personally has been doing fine with out "the help" for centuries....We don't need anyone to clean our floors....The only thing Mexicans can do for me is give me my fucking child support and give me back my son's baby pictures that they packed in a box with my two VCRs and computer software when I moved from Killeen, Texas....Then the box came up came up stolen when I arrived in San Antonio....It has been over seven fucking years....Keep the VCRs but those were my son's baby pics and they can't be replaced....The majority of my experiences with Mexicans have ended with me being at a loss...I don't plan on fucking losing anything else....I do everything for a reason...I was told this by my cousin who lives in Los Angeles that even for another glass of fruit punch I have to have a reason for getting it....They will NEVER GET A SECOND CHANCE TO STEAL MY SON'S PICS AGAIN....That is why I am so obsessed with putting everything online....I put them on cd also but then again they can always steal them along with some DVD players when I move again....VCRs are soooo passe....I will continue to put them online....The only way they will get to them is if the motherfuckers manage to jack a Yahoo server....

Most people in Louisiana have huge yards so they use riding lawn mowers and since their kids hardly ever leave the state then they also have help in that department....How is that for so-called "lazy ass Black folks who are too uppity to take any ole job" Vicente??? We don't want chili powder sprinkled over our crawfish nor do we want it added to our gumbo..... We have been cooking these things for a long time and we don't need anyone's advice on the subject of Cajun cooking....C'est si bon... Most of the people in Louisiana feel the same way as I do...Since Mexicans are all about "self-preservation" maybe they need to find better ways of "preserving" themselves than overheating in a fucking desert....I am not about to help them out...Sorry Vicente Fox....You don't get sympathy from me....Tell your people to enter at their own fucking risk....

1-866-347-2423 <----The number to INS.....If I see an illegal or know anything about some working in the area I'm calling it!!!

Thursday, May 26, 2005


Genuine....
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Genene Jones

They are showing her story on A&E's "Bad Medicine" right now....Mrs. "nurse of death" is scheduled to be released from prison in 2009....

The Bottom Line

I know my dad is going to pop the big question again....He hinted on the phone that he was going to pop the question....I had a conversation with him while he was at work and he said that he hated to see me having to struggle so hard when he is in a position to help me....As you might know he has come into a significant sum of money and he also makes good money at his job of 31 years....I try and tell the older generation that the opportunities just aren't there for us as they were when they were first starting off but now they are finally starting to listen....Nowadays we even have to compete with foreigners like never before....So the bottom line is "Never give up anything that you can't afford to lose..."

I have always loved Louisiana culture but the fact that Blacks have always been dispossed of EVERYTHING (in America) led me to seek opportunities outside of the bayou state....Blacks weren't allowed to call themselves Cajun they had to make up names for themselves such as "French"....We weren't allowed to call our music Cajun we had to come up with "Zydeco"....Now it looks as though things are changing for Blacks here....We are now being included in the fold....Zydeco music has become very popular amongst Whites in Louisiana....Whites in Louisiana can't afford to lose us....And Blacks in Louisiana can't afford to give up on trying to be part of that culture....With the number of immigrants entering the country by storm if Louisiana doesn't hold on to its rich heritage it will be swept away...99.9 percent of everything built cooked, made or sung (as in a lot of cases since we have Cajun and Zydeco music here) in Louisiana was by Louisianaians and the surrounding southern states by people with ties to Louisiana...(Many people in Texas, Mississippi and Alabama have ties to Louisiana)....Ten flags flew over Louisiana (more than the six that flew over Texas) and no one has yet managed to rob us of our cultural heritage....Even after the Spanish outlawed Mardi Gras we petitioned the United States to get Mardi Gras recognized as a Louisiana holiday again once we became a state....Again...Never give up anything that you can't afford to lose... How do you think we got our delicious "gumbo" heritage?!!!

The illegals are pouring into the country...."Wham... Bam...Thank you Uncle Sam"...Mexicans don't like to share culture....I know this first hand and they will tell you this their damn selves...They take over culture....I remember being at Joes Crab Shack in San Antonio listening to the band and this damn Mexican kept hollering "You're in Mexico...This is Mexico...You're Mexicans..." He was a member of the band...Those White people didn't say shit.... You only heard some shit whispered under their breath...PUNK ASSES!!! I guess because San Antonio is 56 percent Hispanic and THEY FELT THEY WERE GONNA GET THEIR ASSES KICKED...Let him try that shit in Louisiana...Bring 'em on!!! He would be unceremoniously shown the door and taken to be baptised in a swamp full of gators....You don't want to fuck around with people down here....People in Louisiana are mean and crazy (sometimes)--we are usually nice people and we like to party and have a good time but "Don't start no stuff won't be no stuff..." ...They don't call us Ragin Cajuns for nothing....

Only culture void Whites
think this kinda shit is cool...That is one of the reasons they run to Hispanics and Asians and others--because they have no culture of their own....It gives them a culture to cling to...Dubya Bush is the poster child for culture hi-jacking....Anytime he feels a void in his life he goes and either hi-jacks culture or oil such as in him becoming a Texan and starting war with Iraq....Bush made himself an honorary Texan and an honorary Mexican...

This post also goes out for all those Whites who talk about the White culture not being recognized....There is no such thing as a damn White culture....You are just devoid of culture....You live in a culture vaccum that is why you are sucking....You don't fit in--anywhere...So quit making excuses for your Asian mail-order brides claiming that American women are only materialistic....And trying to promote White superiority (with your culture centering around NASCAR and Confederate flags) is not culture, it's stupidity...There is no such thing as a race/culture...When you say White culture or Black culture that is exactly what you are saying....There are Black hispanics (ie dominicans, PRs, cubans, etc)....To say that their Hispanic culture has a lot to do with my Cajun/Creole culture just because we both have African ancestry is absurd....This is just a ploy of racists to try and lump folks into definite categories.....Culture is more defining than race because culture transcends race.....

I have nothing against Irish day (or festivals) or Italian festivals (day) or Polish festivals (day)....Hell...You want to take certain days out of the year to recognize different cultures and ethnic groups that's more than fine with me....In Louisiana we love festivals and yet another reason for celebration...But saying White culture is not recognized is another way of saying that you don't have a culture and you are intimidated by others who do....Whites know exactly where they came from to this country...The reason Blacks get lumped into a so-called "Black culture" is because the majority of us have no idea where in Africa our ancestors were plucked out..Even though most of our ancestors came from West Africa that still encompasses a lot of tribes and languages.....I didn't marry my husband because I didn't have any culture of mine to hold on to...I married him because he claimed he was loving and a provider....But when I woke up and didn't even recognize who I was anymore I decided to bring it on home....Moving back to Louisiana was the best move that I had made in a long time....

It amazes me how Blacks contributed ragtime, jazz, hiphop, soul, gospel, Creole cooking, soul food, every plantation home, gumbo and many other things and they became mainstream and devoid of recognition of Blacks.....Hispanics, Asians and others contribute things to American society and those things retain their cultural identity and yet this country craves every beat, ingredient, flavor, rhythm, rhyme, style, tempo, note and melody of what Blacks have to offer....But we don't get our justice due...We don't even require illegals to speak English in schools in this country but just put the signs in Spanish....Hell Cajuns were beat in schools in Louisiana for speaking French not to mention they were run clean out of Nova Scotia for not changing their religion....They say Blacks aren't contributing anything to American society...We are but we shole ain't getting no props for it...

So what is the big question that my daddy is trying to pop??? I am pretty sure he is going to ask me if I want him to build me a house....The questions I need to ask myself is do I want to leave Louisiana again and take a chance on something else....Can I really give up something I can't afford to lose??? Should I stay here and fight for me and others to be known and heard??? Everything comes down to the bottom line... I have always considered moving back to the southeast but with the illegal immigrant wave flowing that way (because they still have benefits unlike Texas, New Mexico, California and other southwestern states) I am sure that in 20 years the face of the southeast will look much differently than it does now....I think I'll stay and represent something....I can't afford to lose my Blackness or my cultural identity...In the end that might just be all that I have....And besides all I can always buy a summer home in North Carolina. Looks like my first one will be paid for....C'est si bon...(That's Cajun for "It's all good...")

NEVER GIVE ANYTHING THAT YOU CAN'T AFFORD TO LOSE....It's worth fighting for...Now let's go eat some boiled crawfish....C'est si bon...

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Exercise

I need to get some exercise....I think I need to keep my stomach muscles tight (not that my stomach is big or anything) due my the c-section in 1995....I have some pain there at times in that area...I was checked out and there was nothing...They say it is probably due to the scar tissue....No it is not a horrific scar....It is very small, hardly noticible....Pat my then-boyfriend used to tell me my abs were rock hard...He said it was like laying his head on concrete...My problem is that I haven't excercised in a while and the abdominal muscles are not like they used to be....I was trying to put a little more "junk in the trunk" and I didn't want to burn all the gas....I haven't exercised in a year I must confess....But I did some today...Push ups, sit-ups and crunches.....And I need to start running again...LOL....Nice time to start---it is summer and it is going to be a very hot one....

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

mockingbirds revisited

Mockingbirds are the greediest birds on the plantation (refinery)...I have never seen another creature who takes such absolute delight in eating except for the tree rats (squirrels)....One way to drive a new to the plantation mocker crazy is to put out a lot of food....They will go crazy trying to hoard the food...LOL....They will chase down everything that moves in order to hoard every single morsel of food--unless it is bird seed...They hardly eat bird seed depending on what it contains....That is probably because it doesn't really taste like anything....

There is a new bird and he is going crazy trying to protect his new-found "gold mine"...LOL...It is funny to see him going crazy trying to chase every single bird away...He's gotta be broken in....Soon he will find out that the food is always plentiful....


Mocking birds truly enjoy eating...
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Devil Worshippers

Devil worshippers must be the most confused people on the face of the planet....I was reading in the paper today how a cult of devil worshippers in Louisiana was arrested for having sex with children and animals and for sacrificing cats....Since when has an alliance with Satan ever denoted anything good or positive?!! Back in December did you see ANY Satanic church contributing to the tsunami relief??? Oh I can see it now via CNN "This just in the Church of Satan the Latter Day Demons has just pledged $700,000 to aid relief efforts for tsunami victims...." WTF!!! Or how about this one: "Garage sale this weekend held by the Disciples of Satan First Demonic Church....All proceeds will be used to help cure poverty in Columbia..." WTF!!!

Nothing good has ever come from Satan folks.....You are just fooling yourselves....Satan knows what's in store for you....

Monday, May 23, 2005

Computers!!!

I have spent the last four hours restoring my son's hard drive and trying to put his computer back on the network....I gotta go to work tomorrow so I only have so much time to play with the damn thing...The software kept giving me a gfp....Damn it!!!

Antehoo....

Nothing going on but another day of 12 hours down the drain at work...My job is starting to frustrate me so it is time to move on....I'll be off this Wednesday, Thursday and Friday so I'll have time to spend job hunting....You have newbies on the job.... They have their preferences and they manage to get their way....They are off on weekends and I have to work nearly every weekend....They have been there only five minutes I have been there damn near a year and a half....The good old days are definitely gone and they most likely won't be coming back.....Time to move the fuck on....

I was thinking about when I was a child and I told my cousin that even if I were God and owned the world I'd still give Him at least ten percent of what I had....She laughed and told me that if she were God she wouldn't give him anything because in that case He wasn't God so He would get nothing from her....A lot of people who Claim to be Christians have that same attitude...They think that they have "arrived" and in most cases only God would disagree because they have the massed fooled....God is perfect love....God's love is love without fear...."Perfect love casteth out all fear"...FEAR is: False Evidence Appearing Real....It is really hard to achieve that state because we as frail humans fail to comprehend the enormous capacity of His love for us and we are so fearful....Before Eddie died I felt someone was going to pass away but I didn't know who it was....I actually thought about it wondering if my parent(s) were going to die and how I was going to manage without that suport network....Then I thought what if is my son....I thought about the fact that I probably wouldn't have another child again....Then I thought about my brothers and relatives....I was just driving down the interstate listening to "The Power of Love" by Luther Vandross....I felt a sadness come over me such as when you lose someone that you care about....Two weeks later my dad called me from work...People crack me up when they claim to be "scared of nothing"....Everyone has fears to face....I consider myself to be more spiritual than religious, after all I am from Louisiana...It is my birth-right to be spiritual and besided I have had too many things happen to me that I didn't bring about....My little brother was playing with my son and singing songs with him before he was even born...He was the one that named my child....My brother who was 4 years at the time (He and I are 23 years apart....Late babies occur a lot on My mother's side of the family)...He told her that I was going to have a son and that he would be named Corey Chance (last name included)....This was a week before I even called her and told her that I was pregnant....I got some abnormal test results and I worried (feared) the whole nine months about having a baby born with Down's Syndrome....I went in for some follow-up tests and and that is when I found it out it was a boy but the tests couldn't rule out having a baby born with DS....I said all that to say this: I think it is absolutely impossible to FEAR and LOVE at the same time...Ask Judas....Ask Peter....

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Adam's Rib....

I know you have heard of the running joke that says: "Adam couldn't have been a Black man because no Black man is gonna share his ribs with a woman..." I had this Black guy come up to me and ask me where the vending machines were at work because his foreman had them them work through lunch and his foreman forgot to order him a plate lunch....I told him where they were but they vending machine man has not been filling the machines with sandwiches in months....So he returns with a few snacks and some cokes looking very sad...I had a microwavable chili in my lunch bag and offered to tell it to him for a buck fifty....This joker had the nerve to ask me "You ain't gonna give it to me for free?"....Then he pulls out a wad of cash (and here I am broke until next Friday) and gives me a buck and sixty-five cents and tells me "See I gave you more than what you asked for..." A buck fifty plus tax is what I paid for it...I was not out to make a profit and besides they get paid every Friday not me....This was probably a half-way house guy...The refineries around here are filled with them as they can contract cheap labor but those guys always have a scheme so women have to watch out for them....They ALWAYS want something...One was even harassing my co-worker and would approach her at her car as soon as she got to work....It became a serious issue and was quickly dealt with....


A day at the new water park...
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Friday, May 20, 2005


Cream filling....
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No more donuts please!!!! Why does everyone want to feed me donuts?!!!!
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Margaritaville....It's a margarita glass with a slice of lime on the side....
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Signs and wonders....

I will damn sure need a SIGN when it comes to getting married again....To hell with trusting and marrying someone just because they say they LOOOVVE you...."Give me a sign that he is the right one for me..." I need a sign....Speaking of signs and wonders there was a strange happening on the job several days ago (Saturday)....I wasn't sure whether I should post it as some people might think I am crazy or just seriously mourning the loss of a friend....I think Eddy and I were more than friends we were soul mates....The man knew me like the back of his hand....Well, I was sitting at work thinking as usual that the job isn't fun anymore ever since the group moved to the new building and that it has become a drag and ever since Eddie died it has really become no fun....We used to have fun eating the hell out some crawfish or shrimp etouffee.....Food is so cultural....Now it is like I am just going through the motions....So I did what most people do--ask their friends and love ones when they have passed for a sign if they are in someway still around looking down on them because it is strange I feel that part of him is still here....Nothing happened at first but you know how signs are--they don't come when you want them to but they are always right on time....About 15 minutes later a small twister kicked up in the refinery....The weather wasn't bad that day it was mostly sunny /partly cloudy...I was watching the twister swirl around and kick dust in the middle of the road...I thought it was pretty cool because it was big enough to grab your attention...Then one of the operators came along and I said "look behind you".....She said she was watching what it was doing to the porta-john a little down the road....She went to making motions with her hands as to how the porta-john was swirling and twisting around....Next my Lieutenant came along....It wasn't as severe as before as a lot of dust wasn't swirling around....But he had driven through it and said it shook his truck pretty good....This lieutenant had known Eddy ever since they worked on the police department before they both transfered to security work at the refinery (These men had over a 30 year-old relationship)....Then the twister kicked up again....About 5 minutes after it had died down this safety guy said that I needed to contact my lieutenant because the twister had moved one of the portable buildings three feet and set it on a 220 wire....That's not all....LOL....The funniest part is that it had picked up the porta-john and tossed it at least 30 to 50 feet feet into the air (My co-worker who witnessed it said 50 feet and his nephew said between 30 and 50 feet but he didn't witness it nor did he work that day...The operator didn't say how high she thought it was...) and over the same portable building and crashed it onto the other side of the fence....That entrance was closed that weekend so no security guard was occupying the building and no traffic was flowing in or out so there was really no one around to used the porta-john, thank God....My lietuenant said that mess (including shit) was everywhere....LOL....That was a very interesting and funny sign....I haven't told anyone that I had asked for a sign before all those things happened....

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Awwwwww.....

I saw the most precious sight yesterday....My male cardinal was feeding on the bird seed I had put out for my cardinals (I buy two different kinds of seeds--one for work and one for home)...When the female cardinal came around to feed he would take some bird seed in his beak and take it over to her and feed her by placing the bird seed into her beak....Awwwww...It was so darling.....It reminded me of how Eddy (I miss you) and my ex-boyfriend Patrick used to feed me (Pat used to actually feed with a spoon or fork depending what we were eating).....

Monday, May 16, 2005

Goofing off....

I should be looking into applying to pharmacy schools....Yes...I have been goofing off a lot lately....It is that I just am not ready to get into the rigamarole of applying for yet more loans and for being disappointed at how little the G.I. Bill covers as far as higher learning goes.....Sigh...When I went to college I went through like lightning...The fear of not finishing and disappointing my parents made me sacrifice a whole lot of my self....Most people don't know it but I stayed a virgin until age 21....Not that it did a bit of good because I hooked up with a jerk as my first boyfriend anyway....The only thing living a sheltered life made me was NAIVE....The same thing goes for my ex-husband....I always felt that I would marry someone white but it is so taboo down here especially as far as Black female/White male relationships are concerned....So I compromised....I felt that he would be more "acceptable" than me marrying someone White...I knew he was not the one truly meant for me but I figured we could work it out...WRONG!!! The road to hell is truly paved with good intentions...All the things I didn't like about him I came to truly dispise even today....My co-worker was saying that she wished some people in her life would just go away...She was talking about her daughter's father....He freaked out when she was 3 months pregnant and has basically walked out of their lives only seeing his daughter twice so far (even though he said he would be there for her and the baby)....I wish my ex-would go away also...Not that he is in our lives that much anyway....I just wish he'd leave the planet or something....And yes I wish he was dead sometimes....yeah I know that is wrong....But I think my child would come out better for it--at least monetary wise....Not that a grown-ass man who still has a child-like mentality (lazy) could teach my son about life anyway....Now that I recall his Freudian slips include calling me "mom"....It says a lot about his mentality...He was looking for a mother....I was always the one who went to bat for the family even when I first met his family (the ones in San Antonio)...Now this was guy that said that he was going to love me and take care of me....Oh well....I played the fool but at least I wasn't a fool like Lynndie and Megan because I am not going to jail over the whole issue.....

I am in an irritated mood because my father gave me some 4-H pics and told me to send some to my ex, his father and his mother....I don't mind the sending pics to the grandmother part but the fact that I have to have some kind of contact with my ex and his father irritates the shit out of me....We are doing fine and we don't need anyone to come and mess it up (This is the same thing my co-worker said)....Just go away!!! This is where cultural differences come into play and I think Kenya had better take a close look at that when she gets involved with Hispanic males and (their culture) with her being a African American female....They are male-oriented--hands down....My ex's father never accepted the fact that I am the only one that had the son who gave him his name sake....

I don't even care to call my ex to let my son talk to him or anything....Corey doesn't seem to mind or miss him and why should I pay for the toll-charges....I quite frankly don't want to listen to his bullshit....That is the thing I despised about him when I first met him....I thought he talked to much about himself and nonsense and that all he was about was bullshit....It didn't sound like he was saying anything....LOL...Guess things didn't change....He still doesn't say anything worth listening to....Then he changed his MO on me and had me thinking he was loving and caring but that was only until he got me to marry him.....My ex and his dad are pathological liars.....They lie about everything....The only way they can relate to others is by lying to them...For example my son's grandfather has never bought my son a gift or anything all he could do is say some shit like "King kong is in the backyard....He is going to get you..." Is that anyway to relate to your grandchild?? I don't think so....

Oh well....I'll send the pics and that is about it....I have nothing to say to them and I sure don't want to hear what they have to say....But too bad they don't rent rooms on the space station....It would be perfect Father's day gifts....

Saturday, May 14, 2005

"Them" vs. "Us" (U.S.)

Whoa!!! Did you see that mushroom cloud go up??? My head just exploded!!! I am incensed at Vicente Fox for his comments concerning Blacks...."There is no doubt that Mexicans, filled with dignity, willingness and ability to work are doing jobs that even Blacks won't do there in the United States...." I have this feeling Fox and the Prez have been sitting around at the ranch telling some "off-color" jokes....Like I say no matter what you accomplish in the United States if you are Black you are still nothing but a "NIGGER"!!! My emancipation doesn't fit your equation does it Vicente Fox?? The first thing foreigners learn upon arriving in the U.S. is that as long as you are not Black you will always have someone to dump on and persecute.....Never underestimate those who you scar Vicente...."You might win some but you just lost one....You might win some but you just lost one...."

I am laughing at Fox's comments on all Mexicans (it is implied) being hard-working....I was on the humble You on every station Vicente.....You might win some but you just lost one.....You might win some but you just lost one....My ex-husband is the laziest motherfucker on the planet and he is fifth generation Texas-Mexican....He has to be at least 3 years behind in child support....But Fox wants all of them to get a free ride....There are tons of dead beat dads in Texas and many of them are Mexican....My one regret is marrying my ex-husband (much to the racists' delight)....I knew he was not the perfect one for me but I thought good intentions would see us through....I failed to realize that the road to hell is paved with "good intentions".....If Vicente Fox didn't possess his regal Spanish looks but were instead short and square-bodied he would be nothing but another illegal, unemployed border crosser.....

So what are you trying to say Vicente?!!! Are you trying to say that Blacks are undignified?!!! Are you trying to say that Blacks are only worthy of low-wage earning service jobs but yet we are too undignified and lazy to take them?!!! Last time I checked sweetie I possessed 2.5 college degrees, and 8 years of active duty military service and I feel that I am quite capable of doing more than watering White folks lawns....Vicente Fox is sooooo ethnocentric....I am pretty sure it is a cultural thang....

I am glad that I am not lazy and hazy like a lot of Americans in this country...They can't even cut their own grass or fix their mouths to even ask their neighbor's son to mow it for a small fee....Pitiful!!! And what do you mean Americans don't want to work at Walmart?!!! Bullshit!!! These companies should be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law for hiring illegals....Shut them down is what I say!!! I have neither a Walmart nor a McDonalds where I live....

My message to Vicente Fox is "You might win some but you just lost one...You just lost one...." My message to Congress, the President, lobby groups, Rick Perry and even the fucking grackles (if it means I have to take it there) is: It's time to close the borders.... For once in my life I whole-heartedly agree with the "gun nuts".....

LOST ONES--Lauryn Hill

It's funny how money change the situation
Miscommunication leads to complication
My emancipation don't fit your equation
I was on the humble You on every station
Some wanna play (Sharon) Like she dumb
But remember not a game new under the sun
Everything you did has already been done
I know all the tricks from Bricks to Kingston
My thing done made you king Don Juan run
Now understand that (Sharon) Non-violent
But if a thing test me run to my gun
Can't take a threat to my new-born son
I been this way since creation
A groupie call you fall from temptation
Now you wanna ball over separation
Tarnish my image in your conversation
Who you gonna scrimmage, like you the champion?
You might win some, but you just lost one
Hook-You might win some, but you just lost one 4X
Now, now how come your talk turned cold
Gain the whole world for the price of your soul
Trying to grab hold of what you can't control
Now you all floss what a sight to behold
Wisdom is better than silver and gold
I was hopless now I'm on the Hope road
Every man wanna act like he's exempt
Need to get down on his knees and repent
Can't slik talk on the day of judgement
Your movement's similar to a serpent
Tried to play straight, how your whole style bent
Consequence is no coincidence
Hypocrites always want to play innocent
Always wanna take it the full out extent
Always wanna make it seem like good intent
Never wanna face it, when it time for punishment
I know you don't wanna hear my opinion
There come many paths and you must choose one
And if you don't change then the rain soon come
See, you might win some, but you just lost one

You might win some, but you really lost one
You just lost one, it's so silly how come??
When it's all done, did you really gain from (gain from)?
What you done, done it's so silly how come?
Now don't you understand man universal law
What you throw out, come back to you star
Never underestimate those who you scar
Cause karma karma karma comes back to you hard
You cant hold God's people back that long
The chain of Satan wasn't made that strong
Tryin' to pretend like your word is your bond
But, until you do right or you will is go wrong
Now some might mistake this for just a simple song
And some don't know what they have till it's gone
Even when you gone you can still be reborn
And from the night can arrive the sweet dawn
Now some might listen and some might shun
And some think that they've reached perfection
If you look closely, you'll see what you become
Cause you might win some, but you just lost one

You might win some, but you really lost one
You just lost one, it's so silly how come?
When it's all done, did you really gain from?
What you done, done it's so silly how come?
2x
You just lost one (8X)
What's a bum, bum??


This song is dedicated to Vicente Fox.....

Friday, May 13, 2005


They call themselves the TRUE defenders of the universe....Who am I to say anything different?!!
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This Gecko is soooo cute!!! He is ready for his closeup...
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A day at the Zoo...
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Field Trip....

We went to the Houston Zoo this morning and just got back home....It was a fun time....I spent so much money though--On stuff my son REALLY didn't need....You know how that goes.....

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Unfit for Duty (or Motherhood): The Lynndie England Story

How can you be so young and make such a fucking mess out of your life?!!! Married at age 19 to make your parents mad and jailed at age 22 to make them sad?!!! She should have gotten more than 30 months in jail....Like I say there are a lot of weak willed White women out there ( I recall an event that happened to me at a bar in San Antonio back in 2000 which I'll go into later in elaborate detail)....You wouldn't have seen a Black woman doing that shit to Iraqi prisoners....That shit was too reminiscent of SLAVERY.....I read an article concerning Lynndie, Charles Graner and Megan Ambuhl....Graner was a damn manipulator and a former jar head....I guess they screwed him up the first time around...Not all Marines are screwed up....I dated one (a former Marine) who was sexy as Tom Cruise (and looked a lot like him) and was as romantic as they come....This guy would hold my hand, feed me and hold my purse when we went out....Sigh....The good ole days (looking back)....Nevertheless back to the sick sordid saga involving the TRIO....Graner played Lynndie like a fool....He manipulated her (and Megan) into doing shit that would get her (their) ass in trouble with the military....He wrote e-mails to his dad which were very cynical after he got Lynndie pregnant in which he described the pregnancy as nothing much but "Daddy what did you bring back home from the war?" This guy was in no hurry to be a father....He was messing around with Megan on the side...He dragged his first wife around the house by her hair and she was more than happy to dump his ass off on Lynndie...She had a restraining order against him...She even states in the newspapers that he was obsessed with her and him having a new obsession freed her from him....Now he is in jail and Lynndie is going to do her short stint in the pen also....Megan Ambuhl gets discharged from service marries Graner (which Lynndie just found out) and gets her old job back as a Medical Lab Tech (my MOS) in civilian life and everything is just "peachy" ....Wow wonders never cease....Now matter what White folks do they always have a job waiting for them when the smoke clears...I bet Genene Jones has job offers coming out of her ass....She'll be set when she gets out of jail in 2009....IF she gets out in 2009....

Sunday, May 08, 2005


Happy Mother's Day
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Saturday, May 07, 2005


This is my Mother's day gift to me.....I bought me a xylophone.....
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cajundelyte needs to suck on my ass
by: woollymammoth007 (37/M/anywhere that i can feel ) 05/07/05 09:44 pm
Msg: 195 of 238

see profile pic please


Nice to see I am so loved and appreciated on the internet...And all this because I said I like watching NASCAR....The last bastions of racists are NASCAR and Confederate flags...They get upset when you invade their territory just like Nutria rats, racoons and possums...You really are what you eat....Hence their possum mentality....

Friday, May 06, 2005


I miss you so much....
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

I'm missing you....

You left me seven days ago today....I still cry when I think about you because I truly realize how much you cared for me....I am crying over the new found revelation...But I could strangle you for not going to the doctor two weeks before you died when you were having chest pains...No one could make you go...I would have made you go and see a doctor....You know I could tug on your heart strings in a way most people could not....I remember walking into your office about six months ago and you had your reading glasses on (the only time I saw you with them on) and you were reading a folder in your briefcase with your back turned towards me....It was at that moment I looked at you and I realized that you were such a awesome, and caring person....You had a gift given from God to love women....After all you said it yourself "All women need to be loved..."Thanks for letting me read your newspapers before you did....Thanks for feeding me....Thanks for ridding me of that pesky little mouse in my work area....Thanks for letting me drink ALL your Pepsis....Thanks for the shoulder massages....Thanks for the stress balls and the hurricane tracking chart (It is still on the fridge)....Thanks for the attention you gave me by picking on me all the time...."See you got me doing your damn job, again!!"..."But I'm just going to the bathroom..."Uh huh..."Thanks for all the "heads up"...Thanks for the care and concern....."You got some sleep last night?!!!" You'd give me your most serious no playing look....You knew I got more sleep than the night before (just one hour the night before) but you knew well that the sleep I got wasn't the amount that I needed....And when I'd tell you something silly just to get you going you'd come over and squeeze my shoulders....I can still hear you: "You hear that Elray?!!" Thanks for telling me to take care of my ex-boyfriend's harassing phone calls before the problem escalated and thanks for getting the job done when I couldn't.....Thanks for the spontaneous phone calls when you didn't hear from me or see me in a while....Thanks for being the protector and for not letting the guys try to use me (Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough?!!)...You were like a pit bull everytime I told you that some jerk was trying to hit on me....

Who would have thought we would have hit it off--The very very blonde hair blue eyed country boy from Louisiana who loved to hunt deer and even wanted to be buried in his hunting clothes) and me the shy mistrusting Black girl from very small town Louisiana....Underneath all that blonde hair and gruff I see there was a very caring heart...Me, I thought I could never trust again--I was wrong...Our time together was so short and precious....You, Ethan and Patrick picking on me for four hours straight...Ya'll had me cracking up...Ethan with his crazy ass clowning me and let's not forget Patrick, lawd!!! You were just sitting there smiling, acting like you had very little to say....I remember how I couldn't wait until you came on to start your shift so I could tell you about Mark's truck and so we could rag Mark about his truck dying on him as he came into work that evening....Although it was only his alternator we still had fun picking at him--me, you and Aaron because just the night before he bragged on that truck like it was the Batmobile....You said "Hey Mark...How is your truck running??" We all fell out laughing...Before that we all were trying to maintain a straight-face when he came into the room.... I also remember how you looked somewhat hurt when I snapped at you and a co-worker (Rick) said "Someone is projecting"..I was projecting....It wasn't your fault at all....It was just misdirected anger at you telling me that for the right money I would most likely go to Iraq and work....My anger was based on a lot of guilt for all the military separations from my son....It really bothered me and I had to apologize...Laugh..I remember the first time you snapped at me...We didn't even know each other formally yet but I guess you had enough of me calling to ask you yet another question about the trucks....Hell....I didn't know where to send them....When we did start working together we clicked like "babies and pacifiers"....Things were never the same when you and the others moved into the new building...We couldn't cut up like we used to....Now nothing is going to be the same again....Like Mr. E. said to your wife "Your husband will be well missed..." Lots of people are missing you....(Margie, Viola, me, Debbie, Mr.E., Steve, Dominick, and others)....

Every time I think about you I see sunshine....I had wanted to talk to you in depth the Sunday before you passed away when you called me but I had yet another knock-down-drag-out fight with "you-know-who" and lack of sleep was kicking my ass so our conversation was kept short and sweet...I had become a little distant because of my self-inflicted troubles....But I didn't want you to know that I had played the fool yet again....You always knew anyway....You knew everytime I didn't get enough rest and was trying to get a little "catnap in..." I can hear you now: "I haven't seen you at all tonight (or "today" depending on the shift we were working--especially Sunday mornings after being out with my boyfriend all night)...What'cha out there doing??? Sleeping???" You always knew that if you didn't see me the first 4 hours of our 12 hour shift I most likely had only between one and fours of sleep that night...Even if we worked the night shift I still would come to work with only 4 hours of sleep some times....Althought it was less common when we did our night rotations...Man...How I burned the candle at both ends during those days....Like Mrs. Jerry said ya'll used to burn it down back in the day also and still made it into work....She said that she didn't know how some you even made it in some nights...You just smiled as you recalled those days....But we worked 87.5 hours a week so we had to get our play time in somewhere....You would drive to west Texas after working 12.5 hours...There were rare moments that I would look into your eyes and see vulnerability....You worked so hard to accomplish your dreams....Your thrift plan was already maxed out....You absolutely loved your deer ranch and looked forward to retiring in two years... It ached my heart to look at you and see the weary that I would seldom see in your deep blue eyes.... I was concerned about you and I know you were concerned about me....I can hear you now: "See!!! You need to get yourself a good man and get those losers from off that couch..." The running joke was: "Is anyone sleeping on that couch?" (The long running "ex-husband sleeping on my couch" joke)

And all the phone calls from you with just three words "Come see me!!!" I'd walk into your office and you'd have dinner or lunch for me.....I can hear you now: "You see how I take care of you!!!" You did take care of me....You did things for me that you really didn't have to do....I appreciate it....A piece of my heart went with you when you left....I wanted you to have it....I had given a piece of my heart even before you went away....

Very few men but you can say that they came into women's lives and didn't take anything away....Some men out there try and take everything they can from a woman....They were told that is the only way to win a woman's heart, devotion and admiration...Not you...The newspaper ladies would start their paper route just so they could come and visit you for an hour....The brothers at work were jealous because I captured your attention...I am almost positive they talk to one another because of the feedback I get from them....I ignore them because they only want something...Well I am going to be missing you for a long time..."What we had was much more than they could see..." "I'm missing you.....Tell me why the road turns...."

Monday, May 02, 2005

Weak Azz....

White boy.....Like my girl Kenya says I'd fucking kick her teeth in....Forever in matrimony will she always be trying to rid herself of your ass....Get a grip couillon (crazy)!!! To quote Kenya.....

I'm sitting here, and the news is on. Fox News, CNN, it doesn't matter. Theyr'e all the same. I'm just SMH at this white bitch who had the whole state looking for her ass, and she done hopped on a bus and headed west. SMH. Her daddy was on the TV crying and shit. Her fiance was being questioned and accused of being a murderer. Hell, I even SAID he probably murdered her ass! Then she gonna call on the phone, talking about she was abducted, and later admitted that she ran away because she got "cold feet" about her upcoming marriage (scheduled for today). LMAO @ how she played all her peeps for fools. If I lived closer to ATL I'd be there right now as her plane from New Mexico or wherever the hell she was, waiting with a dozen eggs to throw at that simple bitch.

I guess I fume because not only did she make a mockery of the whole search-and-rescue mission--which is gonna make it hard for the next woman who really DOES get snatched--she made a mockery of the institution of marriage. She could have told that white boy that she didn't want to marry him. She ain't have to up and leave, making him look all suspicious. I could punch her fucking teeth out. Plenty of us women out here can't even FIND a man to marry us, and according to the news, this is the third time that she got close to a wedding and caught a severe case of the chickenshits. This fraudulent bitch does not know how lucky she is. A lot of us will never get married, and here she is, stinking up the whole operation. It's a scandless and a crying fucking shame. It's times like this when I wish I'd married my ex-fiance back in 1996. I'm quite sure that was my only chance to get married, and there are people out there who have the opportunity to get married and decide to run the other fucking way. It makes me very hot up under the collar.


And you want to take the bitch back?!!! Good luck parduhner!!!