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Thursday, March 31, 2005

This is a great site....

http://www.mixedfolks.com/others.htm....I believe in race mixing--totally...I don't care what anybody says so don't e-mail me with a fucking attitude ok!!! If you don't then good for you...Go live in your hole, trailer or whatever....This is my thoughts and they are free and so is an account on Blogger---get one!!! Mixed babies are the best....I have no sympathy for people who inbreed or try to recess the genes into fucking nothingness....Then they have the nerve to come on tv with their sad stories and we all know how the shit came about....Why is it everytime you see a person on tv with some wack ass genetic shit they are 99.9 percent fair skinned and have blond hair....People grate me when the proclaim "She is beautiful: blond hair and blue eyes" like that is the only true standard of beauty....That is great but damn I have seen much more beautiful people that are not part of the recessive gene pool....Milka Duno is one of them....This girl is awesome....She has four masters degrees and she is a race car driver and a naval engineer....She is also a professional model...This girl earns her money the hard way unlike Paris Hilton...So Blah on the you gotta have blond hair and blue eyes thang....I have never dated a true blond only brown hair guys whose hair lighten in the summer but you could be too blond and pale for me anyway....Gotta have some degree of melanin....I believe in the sun....My skin was definitely kissed by the sun and I believe it is unnatural to be running and hiding from it....Slash from Guns and Roses has a Black mother??? Interesting.....

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Anger Management 101....

I hardly delete posts but the last one I posted had way too much anger in it for me....It sucks when you try and do all the right things and it is the anti-social people that get all the notoriety.....True crime books written about them, Made for Television movies, marriage to their lawyers, etc....Sigh....I have had a headache all day thinking about the IRS reviewing my taxes--ever since 5 a.m. when I went to work....This is the last thing I will write about their sorry asses....In fact, I don't plan to give this year's tax return much thought as it just pisses me off that they are taking their sweet time on it and in the mean time they don't tell you shit about what is going on....But the bills keep on coming, the computer needs fixing, and people have to eat.....I can see why even the hillbillies hated their asses....I have written my tax return off this year...

Child support is another thing that I will not dwell on either....My ex with his "no growing up ass" is riding around Houston, Texas with his father who is suffering from Parkingson's disease....Now he can't find time to hold a job or properly look for one so I guess being a daddy's boy is paying off for him.....My ex-husband is another write off for this year....My neighbors in 1997 called him worthless---guess they might be right....LOL...At the system for faking the funk....At least they could put him in jail for failure to pay but their asses are slow to do anything....It is not where I don't know where to tell them where to find him....I know his social, address, and telephone number....But are they doing anything to bring him balls to the wall??? Well the answer is no!!! Anyway enough of that daddy's boy....He has neither my heart nor body anymore...He is easy to forget....Anybody who only has 12 bucks in their savings account for months is very easy to forget....So enough lamenting over his fuck ups.....

"Deserted by kindred, disabled by failing health, I am forced to some experiment which shall aid me in maintaining myself and child without extinguishing this feeble life."--Harriet Wilson...Yet another example of a Black woman holding it down...No excuses....Failure is not an option for Black women....Black women don't get feeding tubes...We get Rwanda, Somalia, Ethopia, the Sudan, the dirty South with its poverty, regressiveness, status quos and racism...

I have decided to apply to some schools to further my education....Trust me, the last thing I want to do is take out more student loans....Although I only have less than 9 grand in student loans I don't care to owe the government....Only about 9 grand for 2.5 degrees...That is not bad at all....But still I hate owing the government because they are jerks and Uncle Sam will always get his fi....But let them owe you and they will definitely take their sweet time about paying up...

I am considering applying to pharmacy school and since I will be dealing with lots of old people needing meds I have decided to re-invent myself....I decided I don't need to cuss as much as I do in this blog.....Actually I don't cuss that much in person but I do cuss a lot in my head and these thoughts are in my head....I wanna be the pharmacist that all the baby boomers trust and want to come to my pharmacy store....That way I can afford that Hummer.....LOL...Just kidding....In otherwords I plan to put more time into getting what I really want out of life not letting idiots get me down......

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Please do not feed the grackles....

I am in a posting mood today...I just ate two Granny Smith apples and I threw the cores inthe trash can....Some of you readers might know I don't feed grackles....I know they are God's creatures but they are pests.....When they do manage to snatch a morsel of food from me at work they strut around with it in their beaks for the other grackles to see....As to say look at my "bling bling"....That just encourages the other grackles to run the mocking birds and sparrows off and I commence to running them off....There are a ton of grackles across the street from where I live so the apple cores went in the trash....There is this one grackle at work that only has one leg...I run his butt away also...I guess another bird beaked (bit) it off....Grackles are always scrappping with one another so who knows what went down....No I don't feel sorry for the one-legged bird...He can find himself an acorn or a damn soup kitchen...I do not feed grackles....

The rise of antisocial behavior in this country....

"I did it because I could"....America is by far the most antisocial country in the world all of this being born out of slavery, violence and war....Television does not make people violent...Exposure to violence makes people violent....Read about serial killers and you will learn that most of them read about how to do violence to others...Ed Gein read about Nazi experiments...Another serial killer read about how Ted Bundy went about stalking his victims....Ted bundy was his hero....Who wouldn't have guessed that the events of 9-11 and war in Iraq and after would lead to all the antisocial behavior that is plaguing this country....Every time you look up there is a shooting rampage or some serial killing....People don't respect others boundaries anymore....Serial killers don't start off killing folks they start off peeping into windows, petty burglarly ,and entering into homes just so see if they can get away with it....They advance to serial and signature crimes as their confidence and knowledge and hunger progresses....We are too mobile of a society for this to be plaguing America...I bet half of the working population has to get up early or get in late...Do you really want an antisocial person lurking in your bushes or shooting up your work place??? Hackers are very antisocial people that are a dangerous lot....These are people who truly don't respect boundaries and to boot they tend to be somewhat loners and introverted people....A very ripe combination for disaster and disfunction...Killing is just the far extreme of antisocial behavior....Whites and Blacks act like they can't believe that Blacks can be serial killers...For the most part Blacks don't commit work place or serial crimes but society is changing and you will expect a rise in antisocial behavior from Blacks on that end of the spectrum....

R-E-S-P-E-C-T...Find out what it means to me.....I have no respect for people who do things just because they CAN....The bottom line comes down to doing the RIGHT THING....Some people might be overly fascinated with antisocial behavior... The majority of these people (antisocial people) are just manipulators anyway....They want to get into your heads....That is why they have so much prison fan mail and a lot of their lawyers marry them, try and help them escape or have some sordid relationship with them...Serial killers request interviews just so they can try and manipulate....It is only when they are broken of their confidence that they will tell you the real deal...A great example of "Son of Sam"--a profiler told him to cut the shit out that there was not really a dog that he was taking his commands from and he went on to admit that he wasn't taking commands from his neighbor's dog....

The events of the country are feeding this behavior....All of us should expect that it could possibly come to a restaurant, job, school, Olympics near us.....I have eaten in the Lubys in Killeen, Texas where this one antisocial guy went and shot up the place and then killed himself...So I know this stuff exists....Then I went across the street to the mall and saw the book based on the events of the carnage and pics of him after he had pumped bullets into his brain from one of his glocks...I ate there several times...It is no longer open...They finally closed it down....

What Would Terry Do???

If she wouldn't have wanted to remain in a persistent vegitative state then why keep toying with her life??? It seems as though Terry Schiavo was a victim of the system from the start: Eating disorders (The White Woman's quest for perfection--whatever that means...I don't even think they know themselves...Sigh...Since I have kinky hair, dark gums, full lips and dark skin, I'd never fit the standards anyway so why kill myself over it), lack of final care instructions (ie a living will), the media, strangers and her family all up in her business (pull the feeding tube, no don't pull the feeding tube)...I feel sorry for her....I know if it seems as though I didn't have an "ice cube's chance in hell" of recovering I wouldn't want to be hanging around....The measure of a man is his memory....People need to let people go and remember the good times....The most pictures that I have seen of Terry has been of her in this vegetative coma state and she looks pretty bad off to me....Again the measure of a man is his memory, motherfuckers...Why do I post my thoughts and pics online it is because I want tons of memory for my son, grandkids, family and people (ie Dave) who just might wanna read my shit....It will be like I never left here....Some people have more memory in their damn computer than they do of their family and loved ones....Why does it always take a damn crisis for people to remember and be kind to folks??? Pictures of people and (protest) signs come out of the fucking woodwork when people are vying for a cause....Any other time it seems like people couldn't give a shit about one another....People are becoming so unforgiving, intolerant, and uncaring nowdays....When I depart this earth I want all my media rights, pics and other content to go to my son, grandkids, Dave and a few other folks with expressed wishes that they don't change any content....You hear that Yahoo!!!! So that there will be no fucking fighting over whether I wanted to keep this Blog on, my pics on Yahoo, my web page and etc....But I don't plan on leaving soon.....This living will is subject to change.....

Friday, March 18, 2005

La Fille Mal Gardee...


"Assumptions affect observation. Observation breeds conviction. Convictions produces experience. Experience generates behavior, which in turn confirms assumptions."

"Everyone has a devil in him that is capable of any crime in the long run..." --Henry David Thoreau

"Words have no wings but they can fly a thousand miles..."

Thursday, March 17, 2005

My Precious!!!

(sounding like Gollim from LOTR)....That Dell Axim X50 is sweet!!! I can walk around the crib and surf the net.....Sigh....It is a beautiful thang!!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Cold, rainy and windy today...

This man gave me a raincoat, another man gave me some hot chocolate, and yet another gave me some donuts for the second day in a row....The corrolation is that all them were White men....Man!!! Brothers see a sister getting wet and cold doing her job and they don't give a shit!!! A Black man gave me some perfume in December for Christmas and soon afterwards he tried to ask me out....Yeah!!! Like I didn't and don't have a lot on my plate right now!!! He got all in a huff and I didn't speak to him until today when I waved at him....The other three guys don't want a thing from me.....They never asked me out.....But then again everyone wants something...At least it is obvious they apparently are not after some snatch--at least they haven't hinted to it....I am sure the word around the job is that I was married to a Mexican and I date White men....

These people think they have me pegged....Plus they know my ex's cousin works for the place and he and my ex looks Mexican....I am accused of going after "Julios" as one person with a lot of influence put it....So I am sure the word has been put out to the brothers.....It is kinda like prison....Shit travels through channels and networks....I am like "How you know so much about me and I ain't even told you shit?" Me having a thing for the "Julios" is not true....I have dated a man that look like my ex (although my ex has let himself go and to this day I'd never want him back), I have noticed that I date men that look like old lovers....I dated a guy that looked like Tom Cruise and he reminded me of my first boyfriend....Pat was so gorgeous and romantic.......Sigh......There is this cute guy at work that looks like no one I have dated before---just a lil ole Cajun boy....I think he is interested in me....Oh yeah and he is White!!! Go figure!!!

Dudes, I got My Dell Axim X50 today......

Sunday, March 13, 2005

But until you do right....

all you do is go wrong---"The Lost Ones"--Lauryn Hill (The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill)

A family of 15 in New Orleans--all related to one another...Eleven of them were burned to death in a tragic fire....These people had just moved that night under the cover of darkness moving at 9 and 10 pm to avoid traffic....The reason the family of 15 moved is because they were tired of paying $725 bucks a month for rent claiming their landlord did not engage in repairs such as fixing the toilet, other repairs, etc...They were paying that in rent to live in the run-down section of town...I am sure rent was actually $325 a month but after the 6th person he started charging by the head...15 Negroes in one damn apartment?!! They are worse than Mexicans!!! Geesh!!! You'd swear they were from Hati or Africa....Actually, neither Hatians nor Africans would do that kinda stuff...My minds seeks comfort in reasoning that these people had just moved from a grass hut to civilization but sadly I know that they did not...

So they move to this new crib in a different location that night and while they all settled in for the night they lit candles and left them burning because they had no electricity and there was a matress blocking the entrance....Lawd Help.....I THOUGHT BY LAW YOU COULD NOT EVEN LIVE IN A PLACE THAT HAD NO ELECTRICITY...I thought the place was considered "uninhabitable" if it had no electricity?!!! WTF?!!! "Consequence is no coincidence"--Lauryn Hill....This was a tragedy that didn't have to happen...Children died because of this....I mean they could have sprung for some cheap batteries and flashlights a la the Dollar Store....New Orleans must be loaded with Dollar Stores....I am so tired of looking at pictures of Blacks in newspapers portraying the tragically hysterical look that screams "My baby!!!" Church bombings by the KKK, draggings by rednecks of Blacks behind trucks, lynchings, etc; I then can understand the hysteria...But a lot of things we Blacks do to ourselves... I can't understand at all why they were even allowed to move into a place before getting the lights transferred in their name--15 people?!!! I mean come on, surely the church, social services, or their cousins could have helped them out....There were too many adults in the family of 15 that could have done the right thing....It was senseless and tragic..."You might win some but you just lost one..."--Lauryn Hill (The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill)

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Dudette...You're getting a Dell!!!

I have been salivating over a new PDA for months.....My old PDA bored me to death--it was a Hand Spring minus the color monitor bought a la Walmart...I gave it to my litle brother...I have wanted a Dell Axim X50 ever since I saw one in a picture....They are sweet!!! Now I will finally get to get one --no thanks to the IRS....Damn jerks!!! It is BlueTooth wireless and also WiFi so it can join my three other wirless networked computers.....Sigh....I am so much like Kenya...I was reading where she was delighted at receiving a free Dell Axim compliments of her mother...I so fucking love gadgets......Go Gadget go!!!!

Friday, March 11, 2005

What happens when you do all the right things...

but the outcome is not in your favor??? Fucking IRS holding up my tax refund money!!! And please don't call them because all that you are are going to get is a damn drone reading a tired ass script and wanting you to piss them off so they can hold your money for the legal alotted 180 days...Plus they document every time you call them and what their fellow IRS co-workers told you---the elite group that they are....Rolling my fucking eyes!!! The last thing you want to face is an audit!!! I see why they have so many people pissed off at them and it is always the little people they go after....Hell, I bet it has been about 3 yrs since my ex-husband has filed income taxes with his non-working ass....Do they go after him?!!! NO!!! They don't...They hold my shit up--my son was counting on that refund...Between the IRS and Child Support Services (with their ineptness) my son gets bread stolen out of his mouth twice....I so hate fucking bureaucracies....They are so fucking worthless....Nothing but a bunch of brain dead individuals holding positions....Only a few caring people out there that are carrying the load for the rest of their colleagues....I am nothing but a damn number.....In the meantime dead beat dad is living with his daddy and is probably storing money off shore in Tahiti....Grrrrr!!!!! It's not anger...It is righteous indignation....

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Cotton: It's America's Natural Fiber...

Well it is not enough that White folks in the (deep) South (because I know lots of other Southern states are not trying to hold on to the "Spirit of Necromancy" such as William Faulkner stated it to be) want to ride around sporting their confederate flags as part of their license plate novelty some are even riding around with the cotton symbol and the word cotton below it....Yeah right, your family still farms cotton....I don't fucking think so....If they had a chance, many down here would love to have Blacks reduced to picking cotton....Thank God for fucking polyester, nylon, rayon, silk, and even spandex and scratchy ass wool!!....BUT IF THESE BITCHES COULD HAVE THEIR WAY!!! IF THEY COULD FUCKING HAVE THEIR WAY!!! Grrrr....What cracks me up is when I see White girls sporting Confederate flags....They don't take time to even learn their history....Remember when your fore-mothers railed and lashed out at slave women whose bellies were swollen with children for your fore-fathers??? Well, I guess not...Since if you want to sport a confederate flag you DO have to TAKE ALL OF THAT into consideration.....But then again White women have always been somewhat weak minded .... A lot of these White men around here are angry because a significant percentage of Black men are running around with White women and in most cases having kids with them....Embellishing their trucks with Confederate flags is one of their ways of voicing their disapproval....In essence they are saying "We want things the way they used to be...." "People should know their place....(ie the status quo)....Well we know where my place would be, right---underneath a White man or a Black one (which ever one could command me to lie down in the field first)....I do not know of any cases today of Black women dating Whites around here because that is the tabooest of the taboo and it is a very rare sight down here (barely existing at all if only behind closed doors)...I saw one Black girl obviously dating a Mexican ("Oh those filty little migrant workers..." Yeah I could hear you say it...) and while purchasing their groceries in Walmart the Black women were rude to her and the White women just stared...

I was meeting my ex at his family's house one night and drove by a place that had about seven confederate flags flying....I mean standard size flags and not that tiny little made in Taiwan or China stuff....The thing about is is that they had only one US flag flying!!! Yeah we know what you are all about....

This post is dedicated to Matthew Hale....:o)

Eating catfish stew and listening to ragtime....Yeah ragtime....Scott Joplin inventented the moving bass line...

Monday, March 07, 2005

Hypodescent---the low Blow or: How low can you go

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Fucking Pests...

1. Grackles
2. Crane Flies
3. The I.R.S. (I really should move this one into first place)