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The Joys of Art

Tuesday, May 27, 2003

Empty Handed....

Why I keep doing this to myself??? Spending so damn much time [empty time] in chatrooms....They only leave you feeling "empty handed" after you logg off....I tell myself this time and time again (sounds like the refrain from a Luther Vandross song doesn't it??)...After all everything begins with a solid foundation....The reason that most of those rooms end up being only sordid keyboard boxing matches is that is very hard to build a solid foundation based on fantasy and fluff...And not to mention people in chatrooms are very fickle....Dealing with most of them kinda makes me feel like the time my friends in high school mailed a letter to my house and got me in trouble with my parents...I guess they secretly resented me and they decided to play a trick on me....I didn't find out this until six years later when I was 21...That is how folks in chatrooms can be...All those stars and smoches you give to them when you enter into a room and when you turn your back (Is that possible online???) they are secretly plotting to do or say something hateful to you online.....You come out feeling betrayed like a 15 year old....Empty handed is how I turned out to be when I decided to come back here after my OJT at Fort Bragg....Big mistake....These jokers set me up in the first place (during my divorce/custody hearings) and I sure was a glutton for punishment by coming back here....This turned out to be my worst duty station and I used to think nothing could be worse than going to the field as much as I did for almost 5 years...It is time to resist the "trappings" that end up leaving me feeling "empty handed".......Handwriting on the wall I suppose....

Friday, May 23, 2003

Ghetto Writings...I am writing this after the fact....My original post didn't go through so once again San Antonio is spared the wrath of my fury of me going off about the crazy ass shit folks in this town do....That is why so many people around here get killed needlessly....Someone around here driving a vehicle is always doing some IMPULSIVE ASS SHIT!!! Sigh....Relocation is definitely in my future....Shaking my Damn Head....Some crazy ass White guy in his Truck (how Typical of Texas) tried to run me off the road....I started to call the police but I know the police have much more to do with their time...Why did he act so Impulsively behind the wheel??? Because his ass was in such a hurry to get down the street and go drinking with his friends in the parking lot...Don't you just hate that?!!!....Damn losers with no place else to go and consume beer have to do that shit in the parking lot of places they they don't even have a business investment in....Not that pisses me off that much...What pisses me off is that the FOOLS have no fracking gumption to even police up their beer bottles after they are done getting toasted....You know what comes later...You pull up into the parking lot of an Auto-Zone and before you know it "Crunch"!!! You have run over some of those idiots' left over [empty] beer bottles all the while you are screaming "Just let my fucking tire be busted!!!" That shit so pisses me off...Next time some nerdy ass loser tries to run me off the road because he is in a hurry to get tore-up in a parking lot I am going to call the police and tell them just what is going on....You can tell it to your mom and dad from JAIL!!!

**This post was amended on May 26, 2003....Since the server didn't upload my orginal posting I had a few days to cool off....But ya'll know I don't let no shit slide "hmmmpppfff"......Yes...I could have posted this on May 26, 2003 referring to the the 23rd of May....But today is Memorial Day and I know folks are all getting together BB-Qing and stuff...So I am going to keep it positive....

Thursday, May 08, 2003

I SLEPT WITH THE LIGHT ON LAST NIGHT....It really upsets me to hear about Luther Vandross having such a severe stroke...I read that he was still unconscious and couldn't speak or open his eyes....Luther Vandross without a voice is like the day without "sunlight"---only darkness falls....He is to R&B /soul what Dale Earnhardt Sr. is to Nascar...I remember my little brother telling me that he was standing right by a TV when Dale Sr. was in that fatal crash...He said this nasty girl was beforehand screaming "I hate Jeff Gordon ...He needs to hit the wall and die..." When she found out it was Dale "The Intimidator" Earnhardt that was hurt she changed her song....My little brother said she started saying " Oh no!!! Not Dale!!! Anybody but Dale!!!" Dale Sr. is to Nascar as Luther Vandross is to soulful ballads...." Lord anybody but Luther!!! God I will trade you one Luther Vandross for ten "bling bling" rap stars... Luther's life is worth at least 500 of those tribal minded "bling bling" rap folks... "OH GOD NOT LUTHER!!" Even the night was no longer safe...I slept with the light on all night...Hey!! My mama has even heard about Luther having a stroke and she is pretty old fashioned!!!

Luther we miss you...Don't you miss me??? Don't you miss me???
Come back Baby!!!..Yeah...yeah...yeah..yeah....I listen to the Bells and they make me remember....I listen to the bells and I reminisce ....GET WELL SOON LUTHER !!!!

p.s. To my first cousin Robin that was blessed with the hazel eyes of our grandfather....Get well after your massive stroke.....I love you....